With
Thanksgiving coming up this week, I've been thinking a lot about the US lately,
and what I miss. France in a lot of ways isn't that far culturally from the US
(it's still a Western culture after all). But there's no Thanksgiving here. And
not really Halloween. Also, no apple picking or apple orchards. And pumpkin
flavored anything? Not a thing. French people actually tend to think pumpkin
should only be restricted to salty foods and not sweet.
And all of
this got me to thinking - fall is really a celebrated
season in the US. It represents a lot, there are holidays that help make it
festive and build up to it. I'm sure we all have mental images of what fall
brings up. The changing color of the leaves, apple cider, apple picking,
choosing a Halloween pumpkin, bonfires, hayrides, etc. Sure a lot of it is
idealized (I don't know if I've actually
ever gone apple picking), but they are cultural images that we all share.
And the more I'm here, the more I realize the weight of that shared cultural
knowledge. You don't notice it, or miss it, until it's gone.
My first
year really settled here about three years ago, I was really nostalgic during
fall. I kept my eyes open for and picked up colorful leaves on the ground. I
made homemade fall themed decorations. And I felt a certain longing, probably
much more than I ever would have felt in the US, for pumpkin spices and apple
cider. Some years, like this year, the season goes by so quickly I don't notice
it. And then there's trying to explain it to French people. Unless they've seen
it with their own eyes, they can't really understand.
As I was
complaining about my nostalgia the other day, my husband reminded me that this
is part of a yearly cycle for me. Autumn is hard, I always get nostalgic, and
feel better when we get to return to the US for Christmas.
This is the
kind of 'problem' that there's really no solution for. The ambiance and
mythology of fall is, really, just in my mind. But I guess it can be a painful
reminder, once again, that I'm not in my home country and that there's
knowledge and background that I don't share with people here.
France does
have some nice things to offer in the fall. For example, I found that the tree
colors I miss at home can be found in the changing leaves of a vineyard.
Halloween will probably never feel 'right' here to me, but fall is the wine
season here and a moment of lots of festivals and fairs. In November there's
the release of the Beaujolais nouveau wine which does have a certain festivity
to it.
So this
week as I celebrate Thanksgiving, I will most certainly be dealing with some
nostalgia. Being far from family and friends, it is a strange holiday to
celebrate abroad. Slowly but sure, I'll
turn the page on how I think things should be, to accept them for what they are
(in a country that I do love living in, that has so much to offer). To all
Americans abroad and at home, I wish you a very Happy Thanksgiving!!!
An idea of the beautiful colors you can find in vineyards, taken in the nearby Beaujolais |
Your thoughts on fall in the USA make me appreciate it more because of the importance it has for you! I like how you are turning your yearning into new awareness and gratitude for what you have. The pictures were fun to see!
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